You could be anywhere when your life begins. You could be one, one hundred, or somewhere in between; but life doesn't necessarily start the day you're born, or end the day you die. It starts the day you wake up and realize who you are - the day you find yourself. It starts when you finally recognize the beauty inside yourself. It starts when you finally find that same beauty inside someone else. And it only ends when your legacy goes to sleep forever.
"I've been missing him lately." This would be a simple statement if it were the same him I've been missing for the past month and a half. But no. It's someone I didn't expect. Something I didn't see coming. Not again, anyway.
I really don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what this is I'm feeling. I've felt this way before, but only once. It's almost as if I've reverted back to being five years old. The innocence is brilliant. It's such a wide-eyed wonderment. How did I get to this place?
He walked into my life a year ago. Things were beautiful then. I was... different. Life was different. He managed to brighten my already sunny lifestyle, and I was happy. When I moved to Idaho, something changed within both of us, and we were lost for a while. But, a little less than two months ago, he resurfaced. Just when I needed him. Life isn't sunny all the time like it used to be. But talking to him gives me hope for warmer days, and I remember how things once were.
Fact: Physically, I have spent a grand total of ONE WEEK with him, and he knows me well enough to realize something is wrong just by the sound of my voice when I say "Hello." He knows me well enough to see through the laughter and find what is really going on inside my head.
Fact: Physically, I spent every day for four months with Blake. Things were happy, yes, but if I were to sit and talk to him on the phone crying, he would never know.
It's funny how things work out that way.
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