It's over forever. No matter how much I want to deny it, I know it for certain. I miss him every day, but every day it hurts less and less. It was good to have the closure we did. I cried for maybe ten minutes. I didn't even make a sound. But then it was over. Almost as quickly as it had begun. It was over.
I started writing a song on Wednesday, and finished it early this morning around 2:00. The words are only half of the story. The rest come in the music. Unfortunately, I can't play the guitar and piano at the same time, so I may not ever get to hear the full effect. But I'll post the lyrics for you. For anyone who may read this. Maybe it's just Blake. I don't know. It doesn't matter. The point is, I finally got it out. And I think I'm going to be okay. For the first time, I actually believe that I'm going to be okay. It's a good feeling.
That's all, really. I hadn't posted in a while, and I just wanted to bring things up-to-date. Here's my song. My masterpiece.
Sing Me Your Silence
I know the chills that you give me
I saw the sparks that once flew
You felt you had to dismiss me
What happened to you?
My life is going in circles
You are the song in my head
My laugh was empty and faded
Until I said...
[Chorus]
Hush now
Sing me your silence
Bow out
It's over now
Still I
Am lost in your mem'ry
I have to be lost to be found
I gave everything to you
My heart is shattered now
This hole that's filling my insides
Is taking control
[Chorus]
I'm here alone in the dark
It's late yet my thoughts still unfold
I can't live like this forever
So I'm letting you go
[Chorus 2x]
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